Tuesday, May 13, 2008
I don't know why but it just felt.. weird.
I bought bread for you, your favourite egg flavour, for fear that you may be hungry during IS tutorial. You said that you have no appetite and asked me to bring it back. I'm fine with that. I know you are really tired.
I offered to send you back, and you said there's no need to, despite you having giddy spells sometimes and being shacked after a lack of rest yesterday at my house. Maybe you need some time alone. I'm fine with that too. At least there are Hendri and RuiZhen to accompany you till Eunos and your house isn't that far from the MRT station either.
You said it's your fault that things turned out this way. It has been months and I can understand your feelings. I said I would wait. Then you said nothing else. I didn't think too much either. I'm tired too.
I can't understand why you suddenly asked me to stop giving you wake-up calls from tomorrow morning onwards. This somehow has become my daily routine since the end-of-year holidays which started three months ago. Although I did complain about you asking me to wake you up again five or fifteen minutes later but I didn't mean it. & I never said that I'm getting pissed off giving you wake-up calls.
I reminded you again and again in school to remember to eat your panadol before you sleep when you get home. But you didn't, and you woke up with the headache still not healed. I asked again, hoping that you could eat the medicine and get well soon, but you said never mind.
I really don't know what's wrong with you nowadays. Whatever that I have said, you don't seem to listen to me and heed my advice.
Perhaps, I'm still not a person in your heart to the extent to which you would listen to whatever he says, or most of it. Or maybe I have been controlling too much. Or maybe I didn't show enough care, and I have failed to do so.
Sorry if that's the case.
I'm tired. I'm going to rest soon.
9:21 PM
nothing shall foretell my return
