Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Frankly speaking, 2008 is one of the worst years that I've encountered throughout the 18 years of my life till now.
2007 has been a really great year for me, really one of the best, with a new life in poly & workplace, and a new bunch of good friends who helped me a lot throughout. So naturally, 2008 approached me with anticipations.
The year was pretty fine until.. that fateful day which totally turned my life upside down. That period of time since that day left a huge impact on me. It sets me in full of flusters, anxiety, insecurity and helplessness which I've never come across before. All I can do is cry throughout every night. I can't stop missing him.
But, I sincerely wanna thank all my friends and relatives who has been providing assurance and support to my family, making our lives much easier to pass by. I don't know what I can do to repay you guys but I wanna show my greatest appreciation of the efforts that you guys have put in. Thank you so much. =)
Since that day, I know I've to grow up, be more mature and not like before again when I keep quarreling with my loved ones for my personal benefits. Everyone told me that I must take care of my family as I'm the eldest son, the next predecessor of this family after him.
Words can be said easily from inside your heart, but efforts made in are much harder to do so. The road to maturity was full of obstacles, emotional struggles, and sacrifices. I walked along this path and moved on earlier than any one of my friends. I was alone in my own world, which I have to brace up and keep moving no matter how hard it is.
A totally new life. I took up tuition, and have to shuffle my times between family, school, projects, tests, friends and tuition lessons. The stress is so overwhelming that I have even thought of not caring about all of this anymore. Or maybe, don't care about either one of them, to make my life easier. I'm an escapist. Just at this point of time, my superwoman appeared and faced all of it together with me. I'm just glad and contented to have her by my side.
Speaking of this superwoman of mine, she is so silly. She will try whatever she can just to make sure I'm alright. She always says that she's proud of me cos I'm able to handle stuffs well under stress. But she never thought that she's the one who has been supporting me unknowingly all these while, and she's the truly great one behind my successes.
Unlike other relationships, we started out having lotsa quarrels which isn't even the least sweet. But as time passes, we've learnt to appreciate each other's good and accept each other's bad. Things just got better and misunderstandings are slowly reducing. =)
Milopeng family hasn't been as close as before too. Instead there was a gradually awkward distance between us due to quarrels over projects, studies, interests, and other matters as well. It's a pity actually, cos we shoudn't actually quarrel so much over some minor stuffs. People involved should know who they are. I admit, I'm part of some of the quarrels too. But I guess, we just have to learn and accept.
Well I'm glad that it was getting better between us recently. I hope this could continue. =)
Sacrifices are made too. Sleeping time, playing time & freedom. All part of the growing up process I guess. It happens when more responsibilities are in hand. I've always thought that I've grown up in the past. But now thinking back, I'm still a child then.
& I'm proud and glad to say that I'm handling all my personal stuffs rather alright now. Family, studies, gf, friends and life. I've everything which makes my life complete.
Some special people that I wanna thank for accompanying me throughout these while:-
- Sheery,
- Kugan,
- ShanqKuen, and of cos
- my family.
=)
10:50 PM
nothing shall foretell my return
