Sunday, March 29, 2009
Sometimes, poverty doesn't mean losing everything.Instead, it brings out the contentment in humans.
It's inevitable for one to feel inferior sometimes as compared to others who have wealth and status.
But after much thoughts, I felt that although I've lost something which I can't have anymore, what I've gained is much more than what I've lost.
The process is painful throughout this one year plus, but I guess I've overcome it and step out as the man of the family.
It's just a stepping stone, I know I still have lots to do and improve.
I still have my childish and selfish side.
Sometimes I feel that fate is being unfair to me, people around my age are mostly going out with friends and having fun and getting wild with their friends, while I have to start and settle down.
During school times, I'll be busy with my full-time studies to make sure that I maintain or improve my grades. I also have to conduct tuition three to four times per week to fend for myself and my expenses. Other than that, I've to make time out for my mum, accompanying her, listening to her troubles, happiness and more.
To my friends out there, sorry that I've been rejecting your outings, cos I have really too much to handle sometimes. Nevertheless, you guys are still important to me.
I may be worrying about my family's financial situation everyday. But what matters most is that my family and I are living a happy life together. That, would be the greatest wealth in life.
Now, if you ask me a question if I always feel that I'm poor, my answer would definitely be a NO.
On another note, I still miss you. It's been three months since then. We will go visit you again this Saturday.
Meanwhile, take care of yourself. We're doing great now. =)
10:41 PM
nothing shall foretell my return
